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Sunday, February 08, 2004

4:47am
had a weird dream in jus an hr. slept at 3am and woke up at 4. but still it was too freaky to go back to slp agn.
attended love matters talk in the morning which was not of much use since most of us alrdy knew wat sex and love is all abt. thruout the talk int he morn b4 the discussion sessions, there were like abortion pixes and no-sex videos shown to us. i accept premarital sex cuz wat i feel is that sex or no sex, it really depends on his or her own values. cant exactly manipulate our beliefs.. esp when we are 18. (1st pt to distract myself from the speaker)
so he rattled on and on abt sexually transmitted disease and exemption from premarital sex blah blah till he came to the subject of sex afetr marriage. "sex after marriage is a very beautiful connection." he said something like that in the middle of it. then he went on to say that "sex btw homos are just part of their own fantasies." so he prob meant that homosexuals do not love each other truly and that sexual intercourse btw homosexuals are virtual? just feel that as long as both parties love each other truly and wholeheartedly, there's no such thing as fantasy sex. as a speaker he has alrdy labelled himself a victim of society.(2nd pt to ignore him)
but im glad society's changing.. :)
a clip on abortions was played. yes the video clip was sad. not becus they were gruesome pics but just felt that the little lives din haf a chance to choose their destinies. it wasn't their fault to be present in the wombs of those who were screwed ('screwed' here is on a neutral note n not meant to degrade these women) yet they were denied of something in which they came to this world for. sometimes we do qn abt the rights of a mother to abort her baby. but i guess it'll depend on her values after all. ok. back to to the speaker. wat really annoyed me was that he went on talking abt how these little ones din haf a chance to see the world and how he cried when he first saw the vid etc. i tot we were observing 2mins silence then. (3rd pt to get myself out of the hall)

well. thot the classroom discussion was pretty fun. got to hear diff viewpoints from ppl of diff beliefs. gave love a wide perspective to the usual romance we get from movies or novels. perhaps it makes sense to say that love is preservation of one self. perhaps it makes sense too to say that love is abt sacrifice. perhaps.

so spent a morning on this after which there was GM. one of the most effective ones i feel. then decided to take a long bus journey home alone tho the hs reps were going for lunch. was too tired to talk. ha. wat a lame reason but was really tired. think it was road run.. haha. huiling wud agree with me.

but mom called and i dropped by marina sq to meet her and dad for a shopping trip at the closing-down sale at metro. got myself a an easy top which i guess goes well with most denims. haha only sselling at $12! gurls go grab ur bargains! hehehe

ah well. almost 530am now. still dun dare to slp.

dreamer in blue-` woke up