20041214
Tuesday, December 14, 2004
3pm: ready to go out but a phonecall arrived. sent us packing. still aint very steady but rather calm.
4pm: left the house and headed for K.L. wonder if it was like this too when my grandfather passed away. i tihnk i cudn have had the courage to face it then.
930pm: offered my respects.
330am: still awake.
in loving memory.
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cudn slp for 2 nights. kept thinking and thinking non-stop. wonder if it'll do me any good.
tell me wat a fool i have been. tell me how selfish i can be. im blinded and disillusioned. no turning back even though it hurts me more than i can take. im tired.
dreamer in blue-` woke up